eat me.

few months back i moved my blog from one location to this one because of the fact i found out some stalker moron was on my every word. yeah, i know blogs are public and shit stuff like that but really, i know everyone has someone you dont want reading your blog. your ex-bf, your employer, some big-mouth gossip, your arch-rival, your parents (!) whoever.

and then i thought i was safe for a while. and then it got worse. he got into my yahoo mail and messenger. how fucked is that? fyi, im in the middle of job-hunting and that is my primary e-mail. i had applied, used, and inserted THAT email address in every application/resume. and now I cant even get in.

to make matters worse, the form you had to fill in with personal details when requesting for a new password was changed. i didnt know my new date of birth, postcode or even country residing!!

i hope you lose you job and your mom gets breast cancer, ovarian cancer and prostate cancer (is that even possible?)

anyways, D was a huge help helping me out and we did manage to retrieve back the use of my email but i cant tell how cos i fear some moron might be reading this and trying to pull another dirty trick. hate is such a mild word.

the point is if i said anything not so nice or admitting to have my own porn flick, well, that probably wasnt me chatting with you on YM. but now im good as new thanks to D. :) .

Almost.

bending backwards

earlier this morning, my former lecturer text-messaged me,

"your potential employee called for ref check n i said too many kind words in a day. I feel sick." ***End***

can you believe him?

best friends fall apart.

there is a greatness in each person that only some people can see.
there is a weakness in each person that everyone sees.
there is a weakness in ourselves that we never see.

sometimes my faith in God has never been so strong.
sometimes i cry and hopes He thinks im worthy of listening to.



sometimes i want to.
sometimes i dont.
sometimes i wanna try.
sometimes i die.

sometimes u make me happy.
sometimes you smash my heart into a zillion tiny pieces.
sometimes you make me smile.
sometimes you make me cry.
i wish you didnt have any effect on me at all.
sometimes i wish this blog was anonymous, so i could rant and weep and share my fallen dreams.

sometimes i wish we never met.
cos u turned my life around and gave me happiness for a while.
then it was gone.
i wonder whether i couldve lived without you.
whether i would be who i am today had i not have met you.

at times my heart sincerely wish that i could look into the future and tell whether all this is worthy.
worthy at all.

i forgave you for the ultimate sin.
the ultimate betrayal.

i have the right to be wrong..why is it wrong for me to be right?

horoscopes horror...

wat i read in yahoo today...

"Quickie:
Today will be more about doing than thinking about doing. End procrastination.

Overview:
A loved one saves the day. The right relationships put you in touch with the people that you need to know at just the right time. Remember, coincidence is just the universe's way of working anonymously."

i feel like giving my mac a flight test, throwing it out of the 7th floor and see how it aerodynamically glides and lands on the tar... berkecai
yuck fou...

u eaten a lot of things i havent

oh boy. whatta weekend.

it started off on saturday when i tagged my sister to everywhere to do her stuff. hot, sweaty and forever paranoid of snatch-thieves. not good. then, D called inviting me to come with him to the rave in Malacca. No can do. finance department not looking too good. :| and i told him to ask someone else. and he told me "dah ajak dah. semorang pun tak free".

the sisters decided on movies later that day. wanted to see davinci code, schedule went hay-wire and ended up watching Benchwarmers. I ha-te that movie to death. sangap, tak kelakar nak mampus, predictable and just downright pathetic. and to add oil to the fire, behind me were some jerks kicking the hell of my seat.

one time. kick,kick,kick. i turned and stared. he sat back in his chair.
two time. kick,laugh,kick,kick,kick,laugh,laugh.(serious tak kelakar langsung). i turned and said nicely (ok, how nice can i be when im pissed?) "can u please stop kicking my chair?"
three time. kick,kick,kick,kick,laugh,laugh,laugh,kick,kick,kick. i was seething. but i controlled myself since im still in the anger-management therapy phase.
we decided to sit on our legs. legs folded underneath and voila! instantly elavated to a full feet tall. ha-ha. how's the view back there?

and you know at the end of the movies when they have these segments where the actors fail/forget their lines and everyone think its fun and hilarious to watch? well, the sisters stood up and pretended not to know the exit and blocked the entire view for a full eight minutes. seriously. we just stood and looked left and right and stood smack there in the middle.

idiot movie and even worse patrons.

godspeed.















Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
Karena hati telah letih

Love you babes and thanks for the green box. :)