When you veer too far, what once was familiar somehow feels a little alien, remote somehow. I find that this can pull you into two directions. You embrace remoteness. Treat it like when you first came into contact. Take it slow. Take it easy. Definitely approach it in five hundred ways better than the first time around. Or the other direction.
You know how in good times you forget who you owe it too. You forget to be grateful. You forget to thank. You forget your blessings. When bitter times creep in, you forgot what the good times felt like. Honestly. All you feel is an aching, stab of pain and numbness. In the beginning you feel like smashing your head against the wall probably every time you think about the err of your ways. As you pray for calmness and serenity, the urge to smash the head against the wall pops up probably twice a day.
Simple things you left that you thought would make things convenient would be the very thing you ache for and long for. Carpooling together for instance, was a mere convenience which now feels like a luxury I wished I could do over and over.
Forgive the tone. I'm fasting today. Can't seem to get my mind off two things. Air tebu and you. Not necessarily in that order.
I like this song by Kris Allen.
You know how in good times you forget who you owe it too. You forget to be grateful. You forget to thank. You forget your blessings. When bitter times creep in, you forgot what the good times felt like. Honestly. All you feel is an aching, stab of pain and numbness. In the beginning you feel like smashing your head against the wall probably every time you think about the err of your ways. As you pray for calmness and serenity, the urge to smash the head against the wall pops up probably twice a day.
Simple things you left that you thought would make things convenient would be the very thing you ache for and long for. Carpooling together for instance, was a mere convenience which now feels like a luxury I wished I could do over and over.
Forgive the tone. I'm fasting today. Can't seem to get my mind off two things. Air tebu and you. Not necessarily in that order.
I like this song by Kris Allen.
Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away
