D writes, sunday bloody sunday

how bored can you be on a bloody sunday?

i was about to go to a party at KL Tower saturday nite and because God still loves me a lot more than i thought, He poured down the rain... and there went my plan to spend the weekend... *tsk tsk.

seriously, that was a total let down. tell me how else i could spend my weekend? since i didn't have anything else to do, i decided to conquer the living room couch and the 29" tv and watch anugerah era. except when zahid af went sliding with his roller shoes when he was performing and the ever marvelous anuar zain sang his ode, the rest sucks big time. even kudsia kahar looked really, really inviting - NOT.

whatever.

tell me how else i could spend my weekend? later, here i am, in front of the computer with bull thoughts and writing more bulls... seriously, tell me, how else i could spend my weekend?

D writes, when you're a total burned-out...

i'm tired...
and i just wished everything would stop...
i wished the AE's at the office stop handing me new jobs.
right now, i have to design...

a whole 70-page book an annual report
two brochures (including mock-ups)
three signboard designs a 2005 calendar
a powerpoint presentation
and everything due this friday...

so much for a 'thank-God-its-Friday'...

10 things..

10 things i look forward to
10: graduation
09: moving out
08: the next rave in Genting
07: OUR next vacation together
06: a kiss from my sweetie
05: owning my own set of wheels
04: the next album by Dido
03: John Kerry as President
02: my next overseas trip
01: my birthday

09 bands/artises i've been listening to
09: coldplay
08: robbie williams
07: oasis
06: ched khaleb
05: atomic kitten
04: dido
03: sarah maclachlan
02: alicia keys
01: lenny kravitz

08 things i'd like to buy
08: apple mini I-pod
07: the next best thing to the apple I-pod
06: a new cell. can't decide which one.
05: a gold name plate ala carrie bradshaw
04: puma trainers in blue and yellow
03: a pair of denim that'll fit me like a dream
02: tiffany & co charmbracelet
01: lifetime subscribtion to all the junk magazine in the world!

07 things i'd like to wear
07: puma trainers in blue and yellow
06: brown corduroys with frayed pockets
05: cotton drawstring pants in white
04: pink ankle socks with ribbons (thanx babe!)
03: chunky antique rings with semi-precious stones
02: a pair of nine west stilettoes- pointed toe in mock croc
01: nothing

06 things i say most days
06: are you for real?
05: oh, man!
04: i love you too baby.
03: can i come over after class?
02: tomorrow, i swear
01: i need a ciggarette

05 things i do everyday
05: drive aimlessly
04: have a smoke
03: change my underwear
02: call my sweetie
01: check my e-mail

04 people i would like to spent more time with
04: Daoh the Pornstar
03: Ayu
02: my masseuse
01: Mr. Nackeeran

03 movies i could watch over and over
03: 10 things i hate about you
02: reality bites
01: bridget jones

02 favourite songs of all time
02: adia by sarah maclachlan
01: greatest fan of your life by Daoh the Pornstar

01 stupid person i know
01: YOU! for wasting you time reading this crap!

D writes, patience is...

last week was not a good week...

come to think of it, every week since the last two months was never a great one. everyday was either boring, too much stress, too much work, too many datelines to meet, yet, not too many cash... typical me... what else is new?

patience...

my brain is dead. i can't produce anymore design ideas... i am a total burn out. what more can i say when you have sixty hundred schmillion datelines pushing through the back of your mind and you have only two hands to work with?

patience...

so i decided the other day to test my LCD monitor's aerodynamic capabilities. i threw the screen out the window... and beautifully it glided through the air from the third floor of the building, flashing the wind, and crashed magnificently 65 feet on top of a Satria GTI before it landed scraping the road. of course it wasn't true... =) but i wished.

patience...

one of the days last week, my boss gave me another 200 pieces of namecard. It says, 'Mohd Firdhaus, Art Director'... and the next thing you know, i had to deliver and carry 40 000 pieces of files to a client. while i was sweating like a horse, my idiot boss was having blended cappucino with the supplier. and that was it... Mohd Firdhaus, Kuli Batak... how sad my life can be? "hello mr... you pay me RM1000, no EPF, no SOCSO... you now bagi i kerja macam pasar lambak. you said i nih designer... kad tulis art director... keje angkat barang utk client..."

patience is virtue, silence is golden...

i wanna go on the monorail!!!!

u said u were going to sungai wang by monorail. now u said ure driving! no fair...i really wanted to go on the monorail...please can we go by monorail and forget the traffic jams for once..pleeeeease?
anyway...if u insist on driving then thats fine..so if we change our minds midway and decide to go to ou phase 2 instead (honestly we've been there sixteen times this month alone!) we can just drive there. ok!
so how's the weekend for everybody? ive been doing some catching up with an old friend from the dark ages..we've never said 2 words to each other and now we just are trying to make up for those good old times.(or is it the case of being nosy wanting to know if we're there with everyone else, having a fabulous career and pretend to moan?) i seriously don't know.
well, i'm off to have a shower and after that being a typical idiot airhead-trying 24 outfits before deciding that the first outfit was just fine..i dont look good in anything anyway..so scratch that!
enjoy!

Damn! I'm SCREWED!!

i hate to sound like an angst-ridden adolecent at this age but i just can't help it! Everything from this point is going downhill. I'm having issues with everything at home and now i just sit in my room and sulk. Sad eh?
mom and papa..please stop imposing such *ridiculous* expectations on me because clearly i'm not meeting them and guess what? i have no intention to! i guess it's hard for you guys to fathom why you ended with a ridiculously rebellious and stubborned streak child..but i'm gonna tell you now, once and for all..DEAL WITH IT!! Because you know why? If you don't you'll end up with more headaches.
The gap is getting wider.
Clearly i'm never gonna ever,ever be the stereotypically perfect little Muslim girl and at this point i'm not even trying to be. I'm at my happiest.
A packet of ciggies and a BF whom I just can't get enough of does not make me any weirder than any of your friends kids. So get over it!
I take my life as it is. If you can't handle that, i really sympathise with you. Because my happiness upsets you. Really! whoever heard of such a thing?

And baby sweetie..stop worrying about my unresolved issue here because i'm not. Sweet of you to be so concern. But we're happy as we are aren't we? Why would i wanna change that?

Take me away? Please.

My So-called Perfect Life

Don't close your eyes They may not open What if they open Would you be alive Everyone falls But not everyone rises Why don't you get up And rise again for me What if the world were a little more perfect Would you stop crying or would you take the leap Would you open your eyes and blink again for me What about friendship What about friends You said the whole world was against you And it all had to end What about love What about family What about all that you have to live for It isn't easy here without you What am I supposed to do?

Me, Myself and I

I am a mountain I am tall tree I am a swift wind Sweepin the country I am a river Down in the valley I am vision And I can see clearly If anybody ask you who I am Just stand up tall Look 'em in the face and say I'm that star up in the sky I'm that mountain peak up high I made it I'm the world's greatest And I'm that little bit of hope When my backs against the ropes I can feel it I'm the world's greatest I am a giant I am an eagle I am lion Down in the jungle I am a marchin band I am the people I am a helping hand I am a hero You know the ring of life will reign love And the world will notice again Where there is darkness I'll shine a light And builds up a sensual fact in me I'm that star up in the sky I'm that mountain peak up high Hey I made it I'm the world's greatest And I'm that little bit of hope When my backs against the ropes I can feel it.

Movies???? On a weekend????

vacations over.

*sigh* back to reality. back to responsibility.

i hate this feeling of having to fall back on the ground after a fabulous vacation.thank god for daoh. he decided that today we would go for a movie which apparently seemed like a good idea at the time considering the fact that i decided to get out of bed at 3pm today.

*fuck* is there anywhere here in the city where it takes less than 10 minutes to get your tickets for a movie that your probably never even heard of but then you didnt really have a choice? yeah..i know it's a saturday and stuff...but queuing up for almost quarter the time of the movie is a bit too much innit?

so anyways..there was the four of us..and by the time we got to the counter, there was only three tickets left!! i mean, who goes to the movies in odd numbers????? sheeeesh..what now? let's go back to my place and and enjoy the strawberry flavoured shisha and see what happens next?hmm...seem like a good idea, maybe we'll do that. i mean, we can't go shopping right, considering the fact my other half blew his salary on shoes,clothes and sunglasses..

let's go to your place. this place sucks.

i'm still in egypt and it's hundred degrees..

..walk inside the pyramids of giza, one of the seven wonders of the world..
..travelled 700 miles by train across 14 states..
..drove another 800 miles across the bare desert..
..came face to face withwith the mummy of Ramses II the Pharoah who drove Moses to part the Red Sea..
..ride a camel by the beaches of the Red Sea..
..cruise down the River Nile-the longest in the world, for three straight days..
..ride a horse carriage around the town of one of the poorest community in egypt..
..watch the the sun rise from underneath my feet at Mount Sinai..
..swim with the fishes and snorkel at the Red Sea..


Egypt..and a whole lot more that i've experienced here..I thank my lucky stars that i'm very fortunate to have travelled the world.This is not a holiday..its an experience- never ending and full filling..

leaving on a jet plane

its less than 8 hours before i board the plane to cairo egypt. i'm having this mixture of feeling...sad, melancholic,excited and anxious.

its my first time..so i'm not sure what to expect..but one thing i'm sure of. those hairy egyptian man are as horny as an asshole can ever be..i mean..i've worked with a couple of them before but that's another story..

anyways...i feel pretty bad about leaving my better half here by himself. i mean, i know he's gonna be fine and stuff but i just feel bad cause he has never left me all alone...the most we've been without each other is about a week..so this two week trip without him pretty much sucks!!
i feel crummy cause it's his graduation which means a lot to both of us..and i can't even be there..instead i'm on a vacation..how bad a girlfren am i?

hang on..

D writes, pornstar needs job - help

Definitely, I’m one of those, what they call - a late bloomer.

I’m 25 and I have just graduated last August. Eight years of studying, working odd jobs and what do I get? Two diplomas and an award. If I was in medical school, I should have graduated years ago and right now I would probably be a plastic surgeon, 24/7 holding women’s breasts!

So, then – goodbye lala land, hello reality…

I’m working in a company which gives me crumbs and pieces of the bread (yes, they don’t give me EPF and SOCSO) and I’m to death, just envious of my friends. Lots of my friends already success in their career and still their prospects go way up all the way and I’m down here rock bottom… and waiting for my midlife crisis.

Now you’re telling me what to do?

I graduated with two diplomas and an award and yet each time I went for interviews, my qualifications are not as what they have expected. What would they is, “I’m sorry you’re not qualified for this position.”

WHAT THE…?! I’M APPLYING FOR AN EXECUTIVE POST FOR FUCK’S SAKE! NOT AS CEO!

And the next thing you know, they gave me a job as a credit card salesperson. Fuck it, I rather go back to retail and sell women’s lingerie! Yes, you don’t get paid much but the views and the flirts are even better. If you’re lucky, you get lucky… Hehe.

In any case, I’m still trying to look for a job. You guys out there, if you’re reading this – help me out will ya? Hehe.

You idiots, if you’re thinking about “hand jobs” or “blow jobs”, then go fly kite. You’re no better than I am… Well, then…

“WILL WORK TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE – PLUS BENEFITS AND A NEW MERCEDES SLR”