mungkin

"ah... alhamdulillah, kini sudah setahun lagi tua. terima kasih kepada yang mengingati hari lahirku yang pada setiap tahunnya disambut dengan tidak seberapa. banyak yang telahku lalui selama suku abad aku hidup di dunia. tidaklah sebanyak seperti sesetengah orang tetapi mungkin segenggam lebih dari sesetengah kenalan.

aku pernah miskin, papa kedana tapi masih lagi mencari harta. aku pernah berduka hiba, penuh sengsara namun masih lagi kenal akan erti cinta dan gembira. aku tahu erti porak poranda, gundah gulana tapi masih mampu terangkat dan bangun semula.

aku ingin mengambil kesempatan ini untuk meluah segala rasa keikhlasan dan sanjungan terhadap sekolompok rakan yang mengenali diri ini. mungkin, mungkin tanpa kehadiran, senyuman, gelak tawa dan keikhlasan untuk mengharungi hidup bersama2, aku tak sanggup nak mengharungi keesokkan hari... dan mungkin, mungkin aku tak sempat untuk menjalani hidup pada masa depan kerana keizinanNya. terima kasih kerana kehadiran kamu semua.



penting sekali, terima kasih mama... terima kasih shaliza... hidup ini mungkin kurang manis tanpa kamu berdua. alhamdulillah."
- 14 november 2005

HAPPY 26th BIRTHDAY DAOH

My dear,

happy birthday to you! here's to years and years of happiness to come that i hope i share with you. to think that we were both twenty (twenty!) when we crossed paths and never let go ever since.
thank you spending these years with me and i hope you have no regrets at all. i know i can be a bitch at times but hell, so can you! :)

enjoy babes. and oh, i received an sms this morning that made my day. (isk jahatnye)

"sayang jangan risau pasal gifts or whatever cos i still luv you no matter wat..thank you for being there..muahs"

betul ke takyah beli apa-apa?


before he met me. innocent sweet kid.

a weekend that was

and so the weekend was here.

most people were still in the raya mode and we had guest streaming in and out of our house. i hated it.

i hate it when people make remarks how much youve grown. i hate it when people remark about how much weight youve put on/lost. i hate it when people make remarks about when you should get married and think they're actually hilarious. seriously. whats funny is the thought of ramming the buluh lemang down their throat or maybe dunk their pretty faces in the kuah kacang. take that! is that funny? i'd rather be single than be married and bitter like you old fogs. bet you're just jealous cause im single and fabulous unlike you or youre daughter who's married and waking up at three in the morning breastfeeding her offspring her sore nipples!!

which was why my bf took me away from all the madness. thank you dear. he took me to lunch at chilis and being us we order the same thing again. and again we didnt finish our food. again.
and i told him that today since he's paying im gonna be a really nice gf and let him pick the movies for a change.
but i changed my mind when i saw Just Like Heaven was showing. unlucky for me the time was waaay too late, so we ended up with his choice. exorcism of emily rose.

thought it would scare the hell outta me but instead it was such a sad tragic tale. honest.

and today i went out to midvalley. guy from a place i did my internship sometime back treated me to big fat lunch.

all this talk about food is making me full. have a great week ahead.

raya.

and so raya came.
i still cant understand why we have to go back to our kampung even though it was abandoned more than ten years ago. grandma and grandpa have a great home in kj so why cant we just raye there?
so we spent about over an hour in the car going back to a very very old kampung house, cleaned up a house that was left since the last raye last year.
but then again with the same crowd from the city, it was familiar and sometimes fun.
i guess the fact that took all the fun away was the point when you stop receiving duit raya. and so its true.

highlights of the celebration
-the food. sedap.
-the baju baru. as always. dari umur 5 tahun pun tu jugak yang best.
-the duit raya that has decreased massively due to increase in age.
-and that is all. seriously.

worst bits
-the questions. the bile nak kawin questions has developed a life of its own.
-my dad not being around. he's on his retirement holiday halfway across the globe.
-the toilet in the kampung is external. my tummy behaved until i was back in the city.
-the food. met the bf on the 3rd day of raya and he ask "makan banyak ke?" damn.
-maid on holiday and not there to pick up after you. buat sendiri semua.
-being forced to wear gold. i hate it. lucky for my hubby-to-be.
-being away from D.

the second column is longer than the first. i feel bad. it was a good raya.

instant messaging

conversation on YM.

x :kalau ko pk..ape bezanye aku gi clubbing dgn aku gi midvalley kalau aku tak minum tak buat bende jahat
y : pentingkn diri sendir i
x : its just the same
x : if i sit with my frens
x : minum coke sambil borak
y : tp suasana kt sane lagi teruk
y : org menari
y : layan pil
y : mabuk
y : raba2
x : kalau aku lepak midvaleey same je..ade jual arak jugak..byk je org bukan muhrim
x : its just the sme
y : bagusla kalu ko tk buat jahat
x : heheh
x : ko prnah gi clubbing?
y : harap2 lps ni trus berubah camni
y : tak penah
y : mmber penah ajak
x : lor berapa kali aku nak ckp aku tak berubah la ...aku mmg camnih
y : n aku mals pg
x : cume baru harini ko tau
x : mesti ko cam org melayu lain kan?
x : judge org dari segi org tu berpakaian
y : entah
y : skrg akhir zaman ni musia mcm2
y : tp hakikatnye
y : yg aku kenal
y : dr ape dia pakai.. camtu la perangai dia
y : tak lari
x : cube ko pikir sekejap

and it goes on and on. but i dont wanna waste anyone's time.

metaliti orang . macam mana nak ubah?